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i dont know what you think about me?  and even i am not able to understand you from very first day.. .?if i care for you then its issue if don't den its an issue too.. please tell me what to do..?i am in pain already due to allot many other people so please stop arguing with me on such silly matters , if you cannot then please go your way because my patience level is going down every day...so donot want to irritate anyone with my sadness because its already depleting me .and i dun want to add up to it by losing you..

this is an appeal to all please stop judging my patience level....

1 more PAuuu bhajjiii!!!!

once again my sis cooked pauu bhajji....it taste gud but ..i personally doesnot lyk it ...she asked me many tyms .. how did u lykd it ....i had nothing to say .. n she made a big rundu face ... dat i might ve not lykd it ....;) ;)
wat do u guys do ... when u ve to eat smthng u doesn't lyk .... but u ve tooo....for keeping peace arund u ..

huhhhhhhhh....who da hell has invented dis stupid dish .... """PAuuu bhajjiii"  .....poooor me ..had to face a relo drama .... for not commenting on it ...... :( :(

Planning to quote some sayings :D :D

hmmmmm... might seem boring to u ol :D....actually not saying but some fiction or poem .....ll post it soon till den ... 

Keeep smiling  :D :D

Samosa day !!!

 Wow .. today i kicked off my mission for  removing da shit out f my mind and lyf .... Day started with my mom's beautiful smile and her very own saying "beta its olready ...9.. ofc jana ke nae .... u r making me late tooo...get up 9w ..ist olrdy 9...".....Den i smiled n recalled my own rules .....ofc started with ups n down ..but no care for anythng...or any1....Somehow i felt lyk my cursing people to b wd me...So things are now changing .... from my end ....no more teasing ppl for not being wd me ....coz ol i ve s me .Yuhuuuuuu.....I am actually changing .. :D :D

Nyways ....after da end of very hectic day as usual ...i forced my frn.. to ve samosa party......but she refused as she's on diet but mere agge kiski chalti hai :D:D .. she was shouting at me ... for disturbing her diet plan ...n for me diet plans r just jokes ..firstly we had a big glass of juice and den 4 samosa covered with channna gravy ... felt lyk i din ve nything better den dat ......stomach was full with samossasasasaa.....and her strict instructions ... for not disturbing her diet ..... :D :D

Story doesn't end her ... wn i reached home .. my aunt has specially cooked ... turnip with makki roti .... Can't deny her luv bounded n her recipe :):) ....had to eat.... :D..resultant ... m not able to sleep ...gng washroom again n again ,,,,, :D :D.......n M n't lyking it :D :D

Oh ya where was i before ...y i have n't felt lyk dis ..... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Vaishno Ma !!!

 Today .. when a  frn of mine uploaded pics of vashino devi shrine... suddenly tears fall ... i actually felt like m so unlucky dat it has been almost decades gone..i ve nt' get da chance to visit da shrine  .... ve matarani forgot me completely ...??? ..suddenly a lil hope araise from somewhere ,,no she hasn't coz i  ve nvr forget her for second.. she has been wd me frm childhood till da date ...n she ll b wd me n future ... hoping hoping ....

Does everything is happening due to some curse .. due to vch ...not even people are leaving me ... also Matarani is going away from me ....if no..den y din she 's not calling me .last year only ...i ve got 3 chances.. evry1 has gone ...only i ws left in all da opportunities...... 

Plz forgive me ma ..if i ve ever done nythng intentionally or unintentionally wrong .........

If u ll leave me ... den dere is no hope left wd me for living in dis ruthless world ....i cn't resist dese peoples for long......

Plz vaishno ma .... i really need u :(...

mujhe plz apne pass bula lo .....ab bas bhut test hogae mere.....

Its a come back !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Blog ,

i  ve re-find u after...almost 2 years.....lots of things happened ...almost my lyf went upside down ....dun ve friends ..JUST ME .... sitting alone .. gathering all the lost memories .. trying to change my self .. to regain da real sweety out of me ... but ...failing after evry attempt...Actually.. very much disappointed  wd lyf by knowing the ruthless real world outside ..trying to get out of .. ...but...

9w its enuffff of everything .....9w m DAMN serious about myself ...... and i  ll change for my happiness at least ... ..i dun care whatever it takes ...coz i ve realized  evrything is fake , people just know to make fun of me .... no1 9w real me n i tried my level best to make people happy ... but 9w its heights of verythng .. no1 actually cares for you ... specially ppl lyk .. i ve met  in last 2 year... Now no more sad faces ...no more discussions .... dat y dey did .. coz ...nothng bothers ... watevr dey do ... to deir lyf ..... 

Now ..its a start of  mission to change me ..

-Rule 1:  People around me r shit for me ....dey r just ******

 and i dun care abt dem ....

-Rule 2:  I will do whatever i want ...  dun even give damn to any1...

- Rule 3: I will not over burden myself wd people's over sweetness and care ...

- Rule 4: Will maintain distance from da 1 who distract me from obeying MY OWN RULES 

actually ...M feeling better .... blogging s helping me .... Yuhuuuuuuuuu :):)

i know i ll change myself :):)