Spark of Sufism added flavor to lyf :)

Wow after listening some of sufi song i felt them ..m getting connected to them automatically ...dun know how much depth is still dere in dese songs that m drifting  into it . .Felt lyk each lyrics and music are lyk beats ... n singer is just putting da beats into string .... i ve felt so much inside me ...dat i cnt stop myself for quoting something for it :


"" Yeh ruhani rah hai ...ese samjha wohi jisne kabhi ishq kea...

esa logon se suna tha kabhi.. bina samjhe mana tha humne bhi...
har kisne ese apni kalpanao par sja kar rakhdea ...aur usko he sufina samjh liya...

yeh toh kese ne nae samjha ki ..yeh ruhani rah hai ....
vo pyaar ki kashish  kisi aur ko ishq karne ke nae hai...
yeh toh ibadat hai ..us ruh ki jisne khuda ko mehsoos kea hai.... ""

Shuu Shuu ....Strangers

Dear followers,

This is a private blog ...i dun write on public issues ,ol personal stuff  here so please help me to maintain privacy of my lyf  as shocking stats have been shown by gadzet recently added to my blog which shows dat some people from Haryana, Chandigarh,New delhi, Pune, Bangalore, Germany and Australia are following it.

I dun 9w anything about u guys ..if i 9w any1 one f u den plz add a comment to it ,else please leave me alone strangers 

Few Unexplainable :( :(

Sitting alone dun ve word to stake on,
Waiting for new hope to raise ..
falling down n search of comrade i olwaz want

where have u gone leaving me alone ,
dis s not fair wat happened to me ..

companion came to leave me all alone..


how injustice dear lord u cn do this to me..
bound wd so many loads which can never leave me alone..
found a love dat has to go.. it comes to give me feel forlorn,,
ve shared evrything wd lord but still fiasco in making him know da pain m going through.

inquisitorial for knowing wat i ve done wrong..
Will it give a natal to new start..
or will i tie to dis ever alone ..
held wd confusions dat ll nevr go...

have questions which will never ..blame on anyone for answers ...
a joke that i has to live wd all alone 

Birthday please skip for dis tym

A funny thing happened today my dad called up me n asked me abt my bday shopping .. den i realized its olmost 3 week left fr my bday ..n i dun even 9w ... da one who used to start planning for bday from july ..this tym i dun ve any zeal for bday celebration ..i wish it shudn't come dis tym..or day will get skip smhow  if possible ....coz i dun want to spoil da best day f every year ...

I dun 9w wat to do nything as from past few months m going through very bad phase of lyf  lost frns.. , family issues...left my job.. ..n  interestingly ppl i worked wd dey dun even feel of saying gudbye to me for da last tym.. i dun ve done nythng bad to dem still dey behave really awkward to me. dey even ve shared some f deir secret wd me vch dey ve never discussed wd any1..dun 9w how ppl change so early ..M keeping mummm for dis ..coz i srsly ve anger on watever happening to me.

Actually dis s start f complicated lyf ...where u r on ur own .. no1 ll show u..deir real pictures ..so i will start  dis year by non celebrating my bday.. coz m not happy wat i am .. coz i dun ve frns ..my colleagues used to hate me ..family luvs allot but dey r going thru bad phase ..so cnt force dem to b happy on my existence ..dis might b lyk my birth day.. surprisingly except my sis..every1 cried dat y i ve born ..

if god has realized it olready that day itself den might be i would have not been writting dis blog .. strange :(

watever happened to my lyf i ve accepted it wd full courage wdout thinking y dis s happening lyk others do ..??u 9w y coz i always ve shoulder to get me through ol da bad phases i went through ...

today i confess to everyone i 9w .. i dun ve any shoulder to get me through dis n my not efficient to ve single person n my lyf to get me thru dis phase...may b m not worth f having ny1 to help me out frm this...may b i ll nevr come back frm dese setbacks i ve faced n past few months...

I think my new decisions  lll give birth to new me ...who ve no feeling ..u might b thinking m writing it casually lyk others do but u 9w wat my dad says m not sweety if i stop planning for bdays ..n specially mine ..coz for me dat s best day ..on vch i olwaz want to live to its best....

I have quoted a letter for my bday :-

"Sorry bday m new me .. from this year m bringing a new modification b/w agrreement i ve signed wd u ..to be happy ..:)..which will be m not celebrating this day ever from now onwards ..i have olwaz loved n lived  you to da best day of  every year .

So many people accompanied us evreywhere .. thanking dem for their best effort :) :)

U 9w wat i have hurt evryone dun 9w how ..but srsly i loved u allot..n ll olwz do .. dun want 2 spoil u ever..so sorry i ll live u lyk odr days 

Yours sincerely,

Your sweetheart :)"