A funny thing happened today my dad called up me n asked me abt my bday shopping .. den i realized its olmost 3 week left fr my bday ..n i dun even 9w ... da one who used to start planning for bday from july ..this tym i dun ve any zeal for bday celebration ..i wish it shudn't come dis tym..or day will get skip smhow if possible ....coz i dun want to spoil da best day f every year ...
I dun 9w wat to do nything as from past few months m going through very bad phase of lyf lost frns.. , family issues...left my job.. ..n interestingly ppl i worked wd dey dun even feel of saying gudbye to me for da last tym.. i dun ve done nythng bad to dem still dey behave really awkward to me. dey even ve shared some f deir secret wd me vch dey ve never discussed wd any1..dun 9w how ppl change so early ..M keeping mummm for dis ..coz i srsly ve anger on watever happening to me.
Actually dis s start f complicated lyf ...where u r on ur own .. no1 ll show u..deir real pictures ..so i will start dis year by non celebrating my bday.. coz m not happy wat i am .. coz i dun ve frns ..my colleagues used to hate me ..family luvs allot but dey r going thru bad phase ..so cnt force dem to b happy on my existence ..dis might b lyk my birth day.. surprisingly except my sis..every1 cried dat y i ve born ..
if god has realized it olready that day itself den might be i would have not been writting dis blog .. strange :(
watever happened to my lyf i ve accepted it wd full courage wdout thinking y dis s happening lyk others do ..??u 9w y coz i always ve shoulder to get me through ol da bad phases i went through ...
today i confess to everyone i 9w .. i dun ve any shoulder to get me through dis n my not efficient to ve single person n my lyf to get me thru dis phase...may b m not worth f having ny1 to help me out frm this...may b i ll nevr come back frm dese setbacks i ve faced n past few months...
I think my new decisions lll give birth to new me ...who ve no feeling ..u might b thinking m writing it casually lyk others do but u 9w wat my dad says m not sweety if i stop planning for bdays ..n specially mine ..coz for me dat s best day ..on vch i olwaz want to live to its best....
I have quoted a letter for my bday :-
"Sorry bday m new me .. from this year m bringing a new modification b/w agrreement i ve signed wd u ..to be happy ..:)..which will be m not celebrating this day ever from now onwards ..i have olwaz loved n lived you to da best day of every year .
So many people accompanied us evreywhere .. thanking dem for their best effort :) :)
U 9w wat i have hurt evryone dun 9w how ..but srsly i loved u allot..n ll olwz do .. dun want 2 spoil u ever..so sorry i ll live u lyk odr days
Yours sincerely,
Your sweetheart :)"
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