Poem :) :)

You 're gone from my life like leaves fell from tree..

Autumn arrived & take u away ....

Despair of incompleteness is still on the heart for forever....

Neither u left nor me we were destined to meet n leave...

I came like all other people went  n go...

U treat me like ur own & leave me like m not Urs....

Nothing was justified it was just end of me ,,

Thinking of u...falling lifeless apart from you...

Waiting for tym to move & leave me from Shackles of your memories...  

Seen & heard you in others talk..but traitor head still think about u..

 "ain't u feel the same???". my question still awaited .. 

M i that small for ur vision  that you cn't hear me in pain..

it was destined to never going back again so i Moved wd        love who never afraid .. :) :)                              

Why every friendship ends due to Love ????

hhmmmm .... i know dis is very strange topic.. but srsly all of us feel it once n our lyf  and  realization comes when 1000 questions are raised even if u are out of it ....I have narrated a story of  "ashima and vik" .. to show..how complicated our lyf become due to dese incomplete feelings...

Ashima and Rahul were enjoying deir lyf by regularly teasing each odr on altu-faltu topics n suddenly after few months monster self-centered type gal Pragya came in deir lyf ....and  within small span she realized the tight bond b/w both frns ..However, Rahul was just lyk odr guys who s not interested in any1's business ...but he slowly fell into 
Pragya's trap  by making both of them realize deir love for each odr ...{{{I 9w dis sounds lyk any other filmy story but i want to raise question here ...? Why every frnship needs to truns into love ???? Is teasing and caring for ur frn only mean love ? God make relationship or human????? If it ws love den is it important  to complete it even if its one sided ???Is Friendship n't mean loving a person ?Y people dun use deir brain and explore demseleve for deir feeling coz no1 knows u better den urself  ???? If that was love then y din dey realized it before???? }}}}} 
both started giving space to each other  without thinking do dey seriously want to fell in each odr... but  going forward in relationship Rahul realized his incompatibilities wd Ashima ... {{{ Trust me if any1 raise question on relationship incompatibilities..den dat person dosen't love u,,,for dat person  u are just a dummy and he will mould you as per his will..}}}}

Story moved nowhere .. Ashima got hurt and decided to move on coz she has realized Rahul is not her destiny..no callls ..no messages ..and felt that Pragya is better companion for him n she will better  care for him then her. {{{{Why Ashima jumps to her assumptions without consulting Rahul..coz if she loved him den y did she left him ???Doesn't she have faith in her love ?? How can she think dat Pragya better take care of her love ??}}}
hmmmm....Story moved with change now Pragya and Rahul are gud frns ,,,dey used to do shit-shat ol da tym dey were together....but Ashima is no where in Rahul's lyf .. :( :( .{Why did Ashima left him silently without intimating that she will move on in her lyf afterwards ????Why people are so image conscious before people ...???Dey dun realize dat dey are da one who will feel , see and breathe dat moment alone in deir lyf  so why dey act according to people ????  }

But after an year Rahul and Ashima came across each odr .. both tried to behave lyk frns dey were used to but deir was an uneasiness for each odr . Time passed and after 1 month Ashima got a shocking news that Rahul loves her more den anythng n da world ...and he can accept only Ashima  as her lyf partner  else he wont marry any1 else throughout his lyf ..By knowing the fact about Rahul love for her ..she tried to escape from his lyf .. but Rahul has olready realized his mistake ...he din let her go anywhere,...And ....

Finally a day came and Rahul proposed her but Ashima said "NO" .. as she olready got engagged ...  stillll   rahul raised 1000 questions on her nature{{Y now Rahul doesn't feel incompatibilities with Ashima ??? ..Y is he mad on her for her decision ???..She has accepted his decisions also .. now its his turn to accept her decision ..Y love is realized only when u hurt da 1 u loved ???}}According to Rahul .. Ashima is da culprit dat she made him fell for her .... and resultant dey again become strangers for each odr .

My question is for ol "Ashima " & "Rahul".
 "Wsn't ur friendship worth for each other.. Don't u want to give ur relationship a chance as friends ..coz  friendship s da one u both r gud at  ???
Every relationship s bond wd love ..wat is da need to ditch it .Guys if u feel da same as my charcaters do .. Den please .. dun lose wat u gained in Your lyf and  step forward for each other , ur friendship and support each other for your decisions ...coz just think for a moment revive da bst part of having a gud frn n ur lyf .

Please bring back if u have lost any1 due to such reasons ,just love da people who are in your connection but sometime in reality unintentionally we do fell it lyk and bring troubles dat but v hardly commit this part .. ..and have lost many due to dese confusions in our lyf .
Please realize dat its really hard to let any1 go from your  lyf due to other people plotting stuff...

"Everyone 's gem in your  life ,
hold your string tight so that noone can break it by pulling it for demseleve
its your primary concern to keep & protect it by  your love ,
Confusions are meant to happen ..
but dun let dem dig into ur heart deep ..coz years go into healing it ..." "


***M not offending any1s feeling wd this blog i just wrote wat i felt .. 

Bizarre!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mr.attitude ki shakal dekhlo ..& 4 spikes bhi lga do bichare ganje ke 

Something  annoying happened with me ...dere is glitch of y dis has happened to me .. Today i came across a guy he's quite senior to me .. may be 9yrs older den me .. den wd gratitude i wished him .on dat... he ignored me on my face :( :(  lyk  he met a joke on da way who smiles for no reason and 
his  ignorance hitting me inside  ... hadd euuuu feeling ... felt lyk uske spikes ko khich dun ..Grrrrrr..
At work u came across so many people and casually u say hi...but dere r few elements wd  no manners came across ur seat around 100 tyms a day but dey hardly care if u have a single eye contact to dem .... so guys you are challenging someone;'s existence.But srsly everywhere u came across such crap ....and  its hard to manage such "Attitude" people who live with deir "only me" character ....

Big huhhh for You guys and on your "Only Me" attitude ....

this is from my syd

shakal achi nae toh attitude toh dhang ka rakhle ...huhhhh...sareal..

Ghodi leke aawe le jaaye....le jae mirza koe :P :P

Top stories :) :)...m humming a beautiful song "heer" from some new movie..dese days .. Wat a song .. simply muaaah to lyricist & singer ...  "Simply awesome job " done by movie maker:) i cnt bring lyrics out of mind for single second..Do listen to it i am sure dat u will feel da same .. even if you dun ve any1 in ur lyf .. ...... You will start exploring urself for hidden love & feelings vch u might ve ignored many tyms ... but srsly dis song brings spark back into me .. for finding some1 for urself... :) :)

Even i cnt control on myself so dis blog n song is exclusive for u my sweety :) :) plzz.. imagine m singing dis :) {i know guys r really boring for such stuff but plz sweety do it for my sake if possible....} .take -1..n action....

"O.. ho.. o ho.. ho.. .  Heer heer na khodiyo 

Main te saheba hoyi  ...Ghodi leke aawe le jaaye,,,,,Ghodi leke aawe le jaaye .....

Ho mainu le jaaye Mirza koi...Le jaaye Mirza koi...Le jaaye Mirza koi 

Ohde je hi main te oh mere varga...Hans da ai hasr sawere varga

Ankha bandh kar laa te thande hanere varga .... Ohde je hi main te o Mirza mere varga... 

Ohde je hi main te o Mirza mere varga

Ho Heer heer na khodiyo....

Main te saheba hoyi  ...Ghodi leke aawe le jaaye,,,,,Ghodi leke aawe le jaaye .....

Ho mainu le jaaye Mirza koi...Le jaaye Mirza koi...Le jaaye Mirza koi 

Naal naal tur na te vith rakhna... Hadh rakh lena wich dil rakhna

Chhanve chhanwe paawe assi teri parchhawe tur na ....

Ohde je hi main te o Mirza mere varga....Ohde je hi main te o Mirza mere varga

Ho Heer Heer na khodiyo

Main te saheba hoyi  ...Ghodi leke aawe le jaaye,,,,,Ghodi leke aawe le jaaye .....

Ho mainu le jaaye Mirza koi...Le jaaye Mirza koi...Le jaaye Mirza koi 

O.. ho.. o ho.. ho.. . "

sweety...m dying to meet you :) :) .. where are you stupid ? m in mood of loving u very much .. wdout any reasons to look behind on nythng ... so " O..ho...oho...ohho.. Ghodi leke aawo te le jao.. :) :) "

hehhe jokes apart actually singer has sung dis song from her soul...may be she is also waiting for her mirza to come lyk m waiting :P :P .. its hard to wait and control on urself when u listen such songs to which you can relate urself so closely .. actually m also waiting for my mr. right .. so want my mirza to come on ghodi  soon n take me along to some new lyf ....kyunki Ohde je hi main te o Mirza mere varga:P :P...Soneyo asi v thode chhanve chhanwe paawe assi teri parchhawe tur na .... thode naal -naal turna for rest of lyf :) :)

Bhagggu can i wish for something ...plz make him smile atleast once after listening dis song .. kyunki thodi kamli saeeba akka heer love dis song n lost n her soulmate dreams :) :)

mujhe saans aegi apko milne ke baad he :P :P.. c i cnt hold on my horsese to stop thinking abt u for single second :P :P....

nyways cya my sweety :P :P

Happy birthday to me :)

Almost 5 minutes left for my bday ..m heading to quarter century....yupieee ,,, atleast now my parents can feel dat m old enuff to take my decisions ....oh ho m not n mood f writting any serious stuff ...Nyways Guess wat i ve planned for my bday.. dun give pain to ur nerve..here's da list :) 
- >Cake
-> Flowers
-> Surprise gift vch s not surprise for me ..but still i ll ve zeal to open it ASAP :)
i dun ve any companion ryt 9w.. who will plan ol dis for me and help me out wd ol this stuff but i dun care .. if i would ve any ....coz it ll olwaz be common me on ol my bday ..ppl came just for lil part...

4 minutes left :)
No waits for calls ..no msgs ...you 9w y .. coz in advance m olrdy been wished by 40 people. ..n da special wow factor is dat i ve never met dem...dey r totally strangers for me ...stilll dey wished me i mean who bothers in dis world if u dun ve any personal interest to fulfill...

3 minutes left :)
i ve wore my favorite nyt suit :) n olmost 2 minutes left to spoil it down wd cake ...i dun ve any camera person wd me to capture ol dis wonderful moments .. but i dun want to share it either... 

2 minutes left :)
i ve lots f stuff to pray for me ..you know wat my grandma used to tell us dat watever v wished on our bday ..god listen it wdout any refinements ,, :P :P 

1minute left :) :) :)
n  here come da calll ..tring tring ... :) :) 

will catch u later my followers :)

Spark of Sufism added flavor to lyf :)

Wow after listening some of sufi song i felt them ..m getting connected to them automatically ...dun know how much depth is still dere in dese songs that m drifting  into it . .Felt lyk each lyrics and music are lyk beats ... n singer is just putting da beats into string .... i ve felt so much inside me ...dat i cnt stop myself for quoting something for it :


"" Yeh ruhani rah hai ...ese samjha wohi jisne kabhi ishq kea...

esa logon se suna tha kabhi.. bina samjhe mana tha humne bhi...
har kisne ese apni kalpanao par sja kar rakhdea ...aur usko he sufina samjh liya...

yeh toh kese ne nae samjha ki ..yeh ruhani rah hai ....
vo pyaar ki kashish  kisi aur ko ishq karne ke nae hai...
yeh toh ibadat hai ..us ruh ki jisne khuda ko mehsoos kea hai.... ""

Shuu Shuu ....Strangers

Dear followers,

This is a private blog ...i dun write on public issues ,ol personal stuff  here so please help me to maintain privacy of my lyf  as shocking stats have been shown by gadzet recently added to my blog which shows dat some people from Haryana, Chandigarh,New delhi, Pune, Bangalore, Germany and Australia are following it.

I dun 9w anything about u guys ..if i 9w any1 one f u den plz add a comment to it ,else please leave me alone strangers 

Few Unexplainable :( :(

Sitting alone dun ve word to stake on,
Waiting for new hope to raise ..
falling down n search of comrade i olwaz want

where have u gone leaving me alone ,
dis s not fair wat happened to me ..

companion came to leave me all alone..


how injustice dear lord u cn do this to me..
bound wd so many loads which can never leave me alone..
found a love dat has to go.. it comes to give me feel forlorn,,
ve shared evrything wd lord but still fiasco in making him know da pain m going through.

inquisitorial for knowing wat i ve done wrong..
Will it give a natal to new start..
or will i tie to dis ever alone ..
held wd confusions dat ll nevr go...

have questions which will never ..blame on anyone for answers ...
a joke that i has to live wd all alone 

Birthday please skip for dis tym

A funny thing happened today my dad called up me n asked me abt my bday shopping .. den i realized its olmost 3 week left fr my bday ..n i dun even 9w ... da one who used to start planning for bday from july ..this tym i dun ve any zeal for bday celebration ..i wish it shudn't come dis tym..or day will get skip smhow  if possible ....coz i dun want to spoil da best day f every year ...

I dun 9w wat to do nything as from past few months m going through very bad phase of lyf  lost frns.. , family issues...left my job.. ..n  interestingly ppl i worked wd dey dun even feel of saying gudbye to me for da last tym.. i dun ve done nythng bad to dem still dey behave really awkward to me. dey even ve shared some f deir secret wd me vch dey ve never discussed wd any1..dun 9w how ppl change so early ..M keeping mummm for dis ..coz i srsly ve anger on watever happening to me.

Actually dis s start f complicated lyf ...where u r on ur own .. no1 ll show u..deir real pictures ..so i will start  dis year by non celebrating my bday.. coz m not happy wat i am .. coz i dun ve frns ..my colleagues used to hate me ..family luvs allot but dey r going thru bad phase ..so cnt force dem to b happy on my existence ..dis might b lyk my birth day.. surprisingly except my sis..every1 cried dat y i ve born ..

if god has realized it olready that day itself den might be i would have not been writting dis blog .. strange :(

watever happened to my lyf i ve accepted it wd full courage wdout thinking y dis s happening lyk others do ..??u 9w y coz i always ve shoulder to get me through ol da bad phases i went through ...

today i confess to everyone i 9w .. i dun ve any shoulder to get me through dis n my not efficient to ve single person n my lyf to get me thru dis phase...may b m not worth f having ny1 to help me out frm this...may b i ll nevr come back frm dese setbacks i ve faced n past few months...

I think my new decisions  lll give birth to new me ...who ve no feeling ..u might b thinking m writing it casually lyk others do but u 9w wat my dad says m not sweety if i stop planning for bdays ..n specially mine ..coz for me dat s best day ..on vch i olwaz want to live to its best....

I have quoted a letter for my bday :-

"Sorry bday m new me .. from this year m bringing a new modification b/w agrreement i ve signed wd u ..to be happy ..:)..which will be m not celebrating this day ever from now onwards ..i have olwaz loved n lived  you to da best day of  every year .

So many people accompanied us evreywhere .. thanking dem for their best effort :) :)

U 9w wat i have hurt evryone dun 9w how ..but srsly i loved u allot..n ll olwz do .. dun want 2 spoil u ever..so sorry i ll live u lyk odr days 

Yours sincerely,

Your sweetheart :)"

Ghori

i ve frn .. whos da special f ol i 9w .. but he s too bad .....scared frm ghori thing ...
dun how i ll convince him for ghori thing ... u can ask anything from him .. but cnnt dicuss dis ghori topic .....
yahan dekho no1 even cares ki ghori wala dhuna hai abhi mere liye .....]

So guys if ny1 reading dis plz help me how to convince him for lyf long ghori setting :)

n dost if u r reading this ....den plz "Ghori charja guru mm w8ng to play this song on ur wedding "Tenu Ghori Kine Charya Bhootni Ke  "  :P :P
ab sarna na